Yes, I have joined a goddamn gym and yes, its fucking awful. I mean it Bbz, I am not going to lie to you and say ” I love the burn and felt great afterwards” No. I hate the burn and felt pain, pestilence and began hexing the machines afterwards. But at the end of the day if I insist on feeling like this-
Then I am going to have to pay in sweat and work. Having already done the whole eating disorder thang, I’d rather dread going to the gym every day for an hour ( pfff who am I kidding…30 minutes) than have an actual phobia of calories and be constantly comparing myself to every single human female on the planet. That shiz sucks arse, mainly because it’s not allowed to suck on anything else ( calories!!calories everywhere!) and it didn’t make me happy. To be honest who gives a flying fuck if I have a thigh gap, muffin top or bootylicious ass…I do not EVER notice when a girl walks into a room and instantly think “oh my god her outfit is shit, her nose her fat, her eyelids are over weight and her thighs, OMG her thighs…eurgh and her hair…oh my god her hair”
No, I just think “oh some girl just walked into the room”
Trust me when you start analysing what YOU think of people rather then what you presume they are thinking about you, the world becomes a much nicer place. One day looong ago ( not that I’m old, *ahem*) I was walking down the street with an Ex of mine and he suddenly stopped and looked at me and said
” You’ve walked down the street with with me for the past ten minutes only pointed out the women who look nice in their summer dresses”
And isn’t that the truth? When you think about it, times we feel at our most lowest / insecure the daggers come out and we become hyper critical bitches, as lets honest, it makes us feel better and detracts from the faults that we feel in ourselves
Ie- point them out before someone points them out to us.
When we’re happy we don’t even feel the need to notice other people, other than to offer them a smile..think about it, tis true. So next time someone tries to insult you, feel sorry for them rather than agree, what good nice person goes out of there way to be horrid?!
I love that quote and it’s true. If we judge everyone on one general standard, in this case looking like this months current trend on the “beauty scale”, then we will be completely missing the greatest aspects in someone else who maybe eats a pie , or two, or three, maybe with a side of mash and some veg..yeah that’s it and some gravy, yes, poured all over, mmm… I digress ( and now have a huge craving for pie)
Anyho, now I have managed to motivate myself and made myself feel better ( and had a bit of a rant, you know how I love them ) I will now start the mental task of preparing for the gym…only to be followed by-
Hope your enjoying the sunshine Bbz!
Muchos love, BP Xx